i am finding that getting my ass kicked once in a while is good for me. i am talking about life in the dojo again. what a trip. you pay money to literally get your ass kicked by the sensei. at first i was scared shitless –i mean who wants to get punched in the face (of course with face protection on). it freaks you out the first time and gives you flashbacks of 8th grade. but as your time progresses in the dojo, you learn to accept it and actually start liking it. this i believe is experiencing evolution real-time. because if you remain scared shitless, you will in fact not progress in the arts of karate. you need to embrace the ass-whipping! that is what i did last night in the weekly ass kicking –and guess what–it worked–i enjoyed the whole thing. who would have thought that getting your ass kicked would be so much fun. i mean the music is cranking and you and the master are going at it –he is trying to teach you and kick your ass at the same time–wild experience. i feel more alive after this ritual and now realize that if i am ever going to reach black belt, i first need to embrace the ass kicking. i am also sure this is not new info for boxers, etc –but to learn this first hand is pretty cool. go join a dojo and get your ass kicked on a regular basis –quite liberating! thanks sensei
Category: Insecurity
the dojo
the dojo is cool. it is a mix of american flags, ying and yang, U2 music, strobe lights, trophys, pictures of champions, mirrors, mats, cubbies for your shoes. it is a place where you learn shit that you have no idea about. it is a place where you find out more about how to use your body. it is a place where you gain confidence. it is a place where you meet cool people, providing that it is not some a-hole running the shop and fortunately in my case –the guy is cool. thus his dojo has a cool vibe and attracts other cool types –mostly musicians, surfers, carpenters –people that are used to using their hands–unlike me. each time in the dojo, i learn more. it is a fascinating experience to actually learn something new every week –but also to know that a new learning is guaranteed and expected. you also need the dojo master to be an exceptional teacher because if you do not understand what is trying to be taught in the dojo, then you will get lost. yes, there is discipline–but it is not extreme. do not go to a dojo with extreme discipline unless you need it. the dojo is cool –a bit strange, but still cool. try it , you only live once.
society bullshit
it is a crazy thing that can make you crazy if you are crazy enough to allow the craziness to get in –know what i mean? obviously i am crazy enough –only because i become more crazy as life has gone on –is it being jaded more and more or is it a breakdown of the mind by the ongoing bullshit that society continues to put upon us. it is not society’s fault–it is the fault of the people who live in the society –since the beginning of society before there was civilization 10,000 years ago. it is in our dna to think and as we progress, we think more –and this thinking more pushes us to look at the micro and macro societies around us –in the house, on the street, in the town, in the state, in the country–etc (though not much more to etc). to avoid this BS, we need to pull back a bit and look at what really matters –i know it is hard to do and one can never really pull all the way back– but it is the only way to keep the craziness out –comprende? or was this just a bunch of BS too? haha –see you next time –if there is anyone really there
in the night
we wake up and have thoughts of doubt –the night time is the bottom of the day, the bottom of our confidence –it keeps us up an hour here, an hour there –we worry about things and fret about life –what a pain in the ass –close your eyes and wake up –confidence is restored –what were you thinking with all that doubt –unfortunately it never goes away–it is part of the cycle